one life, one desire

to YOU.

2009-11-10T13:54:00.003+08:00

Im missing youbadly, girl.
Worst than you could ever imagine.
I may have move on..
But life is never great without you.
You may say they are sweet talks,
only god knows its true.
I missed those days we shared.
I missed your laughter, your smile.
I missed your jokes, though its lame,
but still, it makes my day.
I missed the countless times we met.
I missed the times we talked on phone.
I missed every singlee things of you.

Having this chance of dedication,
I wish you happiness always, girl.
Your name will always be kept
in my story of love,
deep inside my heart.
No matter what happen,
wherever i am in life,
it will never change.

to, my BISCUIT love.

[you know who you are]

i missed you

2009-08-31T01:04:00.001+08:00

I missed you, girl. I really do.

I love you too, little bird.

agree??

2009-07-04T22:36:00.001+08:00

I AM A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!

all questions answered?

2009-06-14T20:43:00.002+08:00

All i want is YOU. I want us to be together hapilly. Without any distraction, without any disturbance. I wish i could bring you somewhere, somewhere where we can find peace. Where there's noone who try to seperate US. I want to make you the most happiest human on earth. Wanna be the one for you. Wanna be there for you. I want to hold ur hands tight. I want to be the one who make you laugh and smile, who wipe ur tears, who share your probs, who would be able to listen to you whinning without complains, even a single one, teach you how to cool down your bursts of frustrations and emotions, motivate you in everything you do, secured and care for you and most importantly, give you my PATIENCE and TRUST. I want to bring you to a place where you can have everything you asked for. A place that full of joys, loves, cares and all those sweet sweet stuff like chocolates, sweets, lollipops, etc. Doesnt it sweet, love? Living happily together. In a place where noone's there. But just US. I want to spoilt you with my loves. I may not be rich, but i can guarantee you my loves and cares that will never end. Please do not turn your back on me. Please do not leave me. Please do not let go of my hands. I need you. I need you to overcome whatever confusion or stress that i have. I need you to be there as much as you need me. I need your support, i need your strength. Most importantly, i need your LOVE and CARE. All i ever want is you. Ive been thinking of you all day long. Everytime i breathe, its you that i ever think of. Everytime you called, i just dont want to hang up. Everytime that you with me, i just wish that the day wont end. I want you by my side always. What hurt me so badly is when you cry. I feel bad everytime you are sad. I feel down everytime you're hurt. I cant bare to see you going through all those shits. I wanted to show you how badly i need you, how important you are to ME, and how much i love you. All i could ask for is your patience and trust, just as much as you asked from me. I will prove to you that whatever ive said will come true. I want to prove to you that im ur better choice and that you will never regret. I need you to stay strong and overcome all the obstacles together with me. Ive lost the one who i loved the most, the one who always be there for me, the one who pick me up when i was down, the one who cheer me up, my abang and kakak. I dont want to lose anyone else now especially you. I need you to be my pillar of strength. For me to stay strong and keep me on feet. Please do not go. And please be patience and trust me, sayang. I love you as much.

Dont mistake our love for just lust.
You are my soul, mind, body, spirit, all that i know,
but babygirl,
i cant wait till its officially us,
i cant wait to tell the world about us.

So please dont say you wanna give up,
How do i tell her that im falling in love,
And i know you waiting patiently for that day, when we no longer have to lie about us.

And when you're not here all i want is ur touch,
And when you call me i dont wanna hang up
And i know i said it often but i cant wait, till we no longer have to lie about us.

Baby, wont you wait for me?
ust a little bit longer.

2009-06-03T14:18:00.002+08:00

now, my mind is running wild. im the one having roller coaster instead. ARGGH! im lost n confused again. again. n again. what shld i do? where shld i go? when will it over? how do i solve it? who shld i face to? STRESS!! i seriously dont know what to do. things getting worst. life changed. situation changed. she has changed. evryone's changing. i dont wanna act like a bitch or even be one. coz i knoe im not. how do i mke her feel secure? i dont want her to tink that every words i said were just words and tot that she don't matter that much to me. again, I MEAN MY WORDS. bluegh! im just too tired now. shld i? shldnt i? i feel like gving up. losing someting or someone. OR EITHER EVERYTHING? if i were only given one wish, i would like things to be back to normal, where i can find my place to peace n be with someone of my choice, and live forever happily ever after. but somehow, i know, it wont be granted. so yeah. just keep wishing n dream on...

I may not get to see you
as often as i like.
I may not get to hold you
in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart i truly know,
you're the one that i love,
and i cant let you go.

I love you more each time passed.

negative thoughts!

2009-05-27T15:37:00.002+08:00

well, shes having rollercoaster rides in her mind again. shes been acting weird now. moodswing everytyme. blowing cold and hot wind to me all the tyme. wads wrong with u my dear? is there aniting that bothering u? i know its a stupid qns to ask but would u mind telling me ur probs? so atleast i know wad is going on. though u dint tell me, i know there's something annoying u. would u PLEASE tell me?????

i love you though.

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!!

2009-05-25T10:28:00.002+08:00

Good morning to all.
Im way too elated now.
Know why? Know why?
Cause everyting is back to normal now.
HAHA!!
Relationship between me and supers are smooth now.
Esp my NERRA, i love you abang!
I will always be there for u.
This i promise u.
I knew we have been hostile and cold to each other for too long already.
We've never fought this worst before.
This wont happen again.
Since we've cleared the air,
Lets start anew.
Lets forgive and forget.
"KITE BUKAK BUKU BARU AND BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER ALWAYS"
Thru thick and thin.
I will always love u!
Supers, Thanks for being there.
Sons, both of u are awesome. U made me realised my mistakes. Thanks!
Rad n aini, sorry for being rude. I dint do that in purpose.
Kakak, i love u too. And sorry for everything.
Mummy and daddy, niece and nephew, u guys have been missed alot!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!

to my BF, ace. chill ya. she dont deserve ure cries. smile always. i will always be there for u. ((:
and ohh baby. i love u more than anything.

2009-05-20T15:56:00.002+08:00

life being sucky this few days. with me acting like a jerk. i just cant make things perfect. that is me. i guess. have i changed? really? man. i feel so down. )): tired with trainings, studies. bluegh!! bored! and ohh. my ankle. damn damn bad now. but stll. step strong. haa. baby, how do i gain ur trust? i missed u. rlly do. i'll be busy for the next few days. so i hope to myt u on sun. watch movie okayy? uninvited((: I LOVE YOU SAYANG!

SATURDAY,, got friendly match. at tp! supers, come and support us. (:
gt to go. having training now. tc!

superUTT

RANDOM!

2009-05-11T00:19:00.003+08:00

Hari ini adalah hari yang sangat membosankan untuk saya. Sungguh membosankan. Tidak ada banyak aktiviti yang dilakukan. Seharusnya, hari ini adalah hari yang sangat dinantikan. Saya telah merancangnya lebih awal lagi. Tetapi apakan daya. Kita yang merancangkan Tuhan yang menentukan. (chey! masham paham(: ) Balik dari hospital, saya terus pulang ke rumah. Hari ini saya menghabiskan masa menonton tv dan TIDUR. Saya ada satu cerita untuk mencerita kan tentang tipu, kepercayaan dan cinta.

Tipu. Mengapa kita tipu? Jawapan nya ialah kita tipu untuk kepentingan atau pun keperluan kita sendiri tanpa menyedari tentang perasaan orang lain. Adakala, kita menipu kerana kita takut akan seseorang itu ataupun terpaksa menipu kerana ingin menjaga hatinya. Tetapi yang sebenarnya, kita menyakiti mereka. Ada yang menipu kerana tidak mahu kehilangan seseorang. Sikap ini adalah sikap sombong. Apatah lagi menipu bukan satu sikap yang baik. Jangan lah contohi sikap ini kerana akhirnya kita akan menerima padah. Saya tahu kerana saya mengalaminya. Saya akui saya pernah menipu dan percaya lar, MENIPU MENGANIYAKAN HIDUP. Kini, saya cuba sedaya upaya supaya tidak menipu. Bersikap jujur adalah jauh lebih mulia dari menipu. Sekali menipu selama nya akan dipanggil penipu.

Kepercayaan adalah sesuatu yang bukan mudah untuk diperolehi tetapi HARUS diperolehi. Antara kami mempercayai atau dipercayai. Kita memerlukan kepercayaan kerana kita mahu seseorang itu percaya dan tahu bahawa kita jujur, contohnya kita jujur mencintai nya atau seandainya. Kita tidak mungkin hendak melakukan suatu perkara atau mengatakan sesuatu jika orang tidak mempercayai kita bukan? Tetapi, seandainya kita dipercayai, kita harus menjaganya. Kita harus berpegang pada janji dan menepati nya. Jangan lah menhancuri atau membuat orang yang percayakan kita itu hilang kepercayaan nya. Kerana, kepercayaan tidak boleh dibeli. Ia hanya boleh didapat sekali. Ini membuat saya sedari bahawa betapa saya memerlukannya. Saya memerlukan kepercayaan kamu. Dan percayai lah saya setiap kali saya mengatakan saya cintakan kamu.

Cinta. Apa itu cinta? Cinta adalah sesuatu perkara yang dimilki oleh semua orang, malah dimiliki oleh semua makhluk yang hidup dipermukaan bumi ini. Ini adalah perasaan semulajadi yang dikurniakn. Cinta tidak ternilai hebat. Ia tidak boleh dibeli dengan harta atau kekayaan. tetapi kenapa adanya cinta jika ada yang diantaranya telah dilukai berjuta kalinya? Cinta itu buta. Tanpa disedari, cinta kadangkalanya menyakitkan. Cinta dapat menghilangkan atau melegakan segala rasa sakit atau kebosanan hidup. Mencintai seseorang adalah satu nikmat. Nikmat yang semua insan ingin memperolehi. Cinta membuat dunia berputar. Cinta memaafkan. Oleh itu, cinta telah membuat saya sedari betapa nilainya ia. Kerana tanpa nya, saya mungkin akan kehilangan seorang yang saya sangat sayang. Cinta yang membuat dia memaafkan segala kesilapan, tipu dan hela saya. Cinta yang menyembuhkan hatinya yang terluka. Kerana cinta, saya disayangi kerana cinta, saya memilki dia. Saya amat mencintainya. Saya amat memerlukan nya. Tanpa dia, hidup mungkin tidak akan bererti lagi.

Jadi dengar lah ini. Saya tahu saya pernah atau telah melukai hatimu. Saya akui kesilapan saya. Kerana cinta yang tidak ternilai hebat nya, saya berjanji tidak akan melakukan nya lagi. Saya mencintai kamu. Kita telah menjalani hidup ini bersama dan saya harap/ingin kita pergi jauh. Pandu saya melalui hidup ini. Kesepian dan kesunyian melanda setiap kali kamu pergi membawa diri. Saya merindui sentuhan mu. Saya merindui dakapanmu. Saya merindui dirimu. Maafkan saya akan apa yang terjadi. Percayai lah bahawa saya mencintaimu dan hanya kamu.

Well, im just being random. trying my best to type in perfect malay but obviously i cant. its funny anyway. till then, happy reading.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers, especially my mom. I LOVE YOU MUMMY!! u've been the greatest mom, trust me.

especially for NURA

2009-05-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

Nura, things are done and over. i knoe, i am really a heartbreaker. u even said that. thn why dint u leave? 130805. 4 years alr tao. uve move on kan? i knoe u do. come on. dont lie. in btwn these years, adr agy owg laen kn othr thn me? huh? da lar. things are over ryte? luper kn ajr okayy? i knoe there's someone else pat luar tu ngah 2nggu. just move on aite? im sorry. i am rlly sorry. i dont wanna lose her. i love her. okayy?

BABY! i love u! tao? i love u. trust me. no more lies, deceits or wad so eva that will hurt u. nomore. once is enough. ENOUGH! percaye lar. i sayang u sowg. my dearest baby ANYOINYOI. :)))))

2009-05-08T09:52:00.002+08:00

am i such a heartbreaker? if i were a burden to u, leave me. by all means. i dont wish to hurt u anymore. enough of all the past. its history now. there is nth i could do. im a bitch ryte? thn why did u waet? promises are meant to be broken huh? so leave!

to her: word are contradicting. i know. but marks my words, I LOVE YOU!

LOST and CONFUSED

2009-04-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

Im just lost and confused. Wonder why could this happened. I love you more than anything else. Its just so hard, so hard for me to show how much i love u and how much i need u. I dont want to hurt you so badly with just these three words? "I love you". But it is more than just words. I said it cause i mean it. I said it cause i love you. I dint pretend that i love you. I dint. And i never lie. Why is it so hard for u to believe me? Why is it so hard for u to undrstnd? Am i being too much? Am i being unfair or selfish? Insecure? Im lost with my words. I dont know what else to say. Im sorry baby. Im sorry if i dissapoint u. Lies and deceits. Too many of that. Im sorry.

"Its frustrating when the one you love, don't trust you and you had no idea how to gain her trust back after the wrong you've done which can never be erased bcos it is already part of your skin."
"I'm head over heels for you, love, so i'm gonna take this chance and trust you no matter what happens and no matter what i heard from people. It doesn't matter. Though i'm still feeling insecure. Bcos i love you like you love me, prolly more and i don't want you to ever leave me. I'm sorry if i went away for awhile and weren't there when you needed me."
I love you, i really do. Trust me. Please.

superUTT.

LOST!

an outing with the photographers

2009-03-11T22:46:00.015+08:00

When Shisha-ing with the photographers n a few of my friends last week, cant rlly rmbr which date. The outing was fun though it just a few of us. Fan, mira, zyeza, naqib, diah, albert n gf. Its my first tyme met albert. Been hearing his name but wondering who is hym. He was a nice guy afterall. haha! And sadly, naqib joined us when we was about to leave. Sorry naqib. Will hang out together soon aite? And honestly, i missed all the photographers. Will be back working after errr... emm... chalets? Which is like nxt two weeks? Cfm!:) For mira n zyeza, will miss u guys lots. One day kte kuar same same okayy? okayy go!

Meet the PHOTOGRAPHERs

UTT

FAN

NAQIB

ZYEZA

MIRA

and lastly the couple, ALBERT n GIRLFRIEND.

the preety ladies

introducing diah n ALBERTINA. haha!

the photograpers(3/4 of it)

muker last warning ehk mira.

ZYEZA's ''shaky'' effect(:

P/s: I missed my baby lots. And i love her wholeheartedly(:

superUTT

2009-03-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

Gonna be a short one here. went out with supers just now. todae outing was perfect. coz all the supers were there(accpt for my dear doter-in-law, mirah). honestly, tings was a little bit messed up at ferst. but afterall, we managed to solve it. well, just love the together-ness we had. hope the SuperFamilia will rlly last forever. just cant waet for the chalet. im rlly looking forwrd for it. nxt wk schedule gonna be packed with chalets, both floorball's and supers. wooohooo!!

its exam week. im busy studying. stdy. stdy. stdy. and frankly, i rlly mish u baby. it been ages that we've not been spending quality tymes 2gdr. when i sae QUALITY it means QUALITY. u knoe wad i mean. though it is just 2 wks, but it rlly leaves a big impact in my lyfe. hope we gt all our tyme in the world after exams. ily swthrt. i rlly do.

well, gtg. gonna stdy now. a total last min revision! i hate it when it comes to exam. tml paper is machinery maintainance. wed gonna b pneumatic n hydraulic. fyi ppl, i knoe nth about tiz two modules. it rlly drives me crazy!!!! HHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLPPPPPP!!!!!!!! can anyone help to sit for my papers?????????? and wad if i cant do it??? can i cry????? god!!!! help me. plllllllllzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!

with love,

superUTT

2009-03-01T00:06:00.005+08:00

going out with the SUPERs today. firstly, met son, phyl at 12 plus. supposely at 12 but i delayed it due to overslept. haha. sorry son. otw imm talk to BYY. cant gt to myt her coz she sick. damn! i mish her lots. baby, gt well soon aite? hope to myt ya on mon. dont skip meal and dont forget to eat meddy. okayy swthrt? went to eat at BURGER KING and guess wad? i bought a kids meal. haha! just to gt the toy which i wanted to gve KAKAK coz it just look lyke her. hee. the cashier smiled at me when i asked for kids meal. lyke wtf. i cant buy the kids meal meh? haiyoo. hmm. after that went to tamp myt abang, kakak n eiira. thn went to cck. iyrlar tu. mentang mentang aku kai concession. suker uat aku patah alk patah alk? haa. went to cck met son fan n we saw syaz and alya. that hotstuffs. bought some donuts, icecream, slack arnd thn went bck hme. nth much happened. i just mish my baby lots:(

btw, here are some pics of the SUPERs

This pic look funny but it kinda cute. edited by Eiira. credits to her.

and to all, this is my LOVE ones.

superUTT

2009-02-23T00:19:00.003+08:00

Ohh. i forgot. this post is to my dearest bestfriend.

Ace, gt well soon aite? I know how u feel coz we shared the same pain.

All my prayers will be for you. I really dont wanna lose a friend lyke u.

Honestly, i mish u bro. I really do. Really hope u gt well soon.

Tk sanggop rase nyr nk jwb setiap kaly owg tnyr sal kao. Penat tao. HAHA!

Anyway, i see u tml alryte? Take gud care of urself buddy.

yours truly,superUTT

2009-02-21T19:33:00.008+08:00

Here's a little story about friday. Went karaoke with the SUPERs, though only some of them. It was great and kakak voice was superb! She sang a few of Siti's song and she sounded exactly like Siti. Gosh! I fell in love with her... Voice i mean. HAHA! Abang was all the way staring at kakak and the rest was shocked with eyes and mouth wide open. hahah! Sang some songs with her. But the funny ting is ive to sing the gerl's part and she sing the guy's. Terbalik gtu kn? haha! Nvm, stll love her though. Hee. Finished at 9, met the other two SUPERs, fan n bai at forum. Chill arnd, took some pics and when off. Friday outing was a total fun especially the last part. HAHA! Here are some pics that i manage to upload. Yg laen, laen kali jek lar ye. (:

Sweet kn ank aku? masham manje gtu. haha!

my two heros.

2009-02-20T10:34:00.002+08:00

LOVES THE NO 14

HAHA! im so in love with you. 14, 14. bet its gonna be my nxt fav no. haha! lyke finally, life is so much diff now. my pillar of strength, my source of light, my happiness. i love u baby. i do. i seriously do. but thnks to abg and kakak anyway. if not because of them i wouldnt hve the courage to. haha! and yeah. new member added in superFAMILIA.

to her: thnks for leaving me hanging. i dont know where on earth hve u been. u kept left me hanging. for now, i just pray for ur happiness. hope u gt a better person out there. i guess, im not the one for u. but one thing for sure, all these while when i said i love u, i rlly mean it. i rlly do. please take gud care of urself and gud luck in ur future endeavours. tc coz i care. :)

when CONFUSION strike.

2009-02-06T10:28:00.000+08:00

I look out far,
only you in my mind.

I hope you can feel the love I
had for you so much.

Even though sometimes I'm
quiet when I'm with you,
you are what I'm thinking of
ALWAYS.

When you cry,
I hope to be the one
who wipe away your tears.

When you are lonely,
there's me to be with you.
to make you happy
every single day of your life.

I love you always,
and It's true.

Why isit so hard for u to believe? I said I LOVE YOU means it is true. Baby, till when must i wait? Do u really love me? All i want is just ur ans. Dont keep me hanging. Im tired. I seriously do. Either u love me or u leave me.

"And I need someone who could make me laugh every single day of my life

but yet make me feel secured

and seriously loved."

As much as you feel insecured that is as much as i feel too. Tell me now, what can i do to make u feel secured? I can promise u my love but please, dont do this to me. Stop leaving me hanging. If u love me, trust me. The only thing i ask for. TRUST.

Leave me or Love me?

2009-01-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

Thing happened and i really dont know what to do. Im sorry for the bad thoughts i had on u. Infact, both of u. Im just so scared. Scared of losing both of u. Though i knew how bad u are but it doesnt matter compared to the friendship we shared. Cause i know, u can be trusted. But after hearing that from my own BF. Of course, as a human being, i do have feelings. I dint aspect u to do that. That is why it blown my mind away. Im sorry kakak for mistook u. Rin, when i say i love u, i mean it. Im sorry if ive hurt u in any ways. I dont need u to accpt me in ur life as im sure ure not prepared yet. I dont wanna be a substitute cause i know ur heart, ur mind stll for sumone else. I dont want u to accpt me just because i love u and i need u. Im sorry baby. Leave me or love me, u decide. I dont want u to regret later. Just keep this in mind, i'll always be here loving u till ever.

And to those girls. Stop it, will u?

2009-01-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

HELLO!(:

Credits to my dearest son, PHYL for editing this lovely profile. ILY son(:

A very fucking tiring day. Woke up in the morning and went to work. Were late for 15mins(as per normal, i'll nvr be early:D). end at 5plus coz we told lijing we meeting our friends. Bought BEN&JERRY'S, that lovely icecream. And went off to myt our BF. Before that, went to Lot1 to buy contact lenses BUT we didnt saw any spec shop. Thanks to shaq for telling us that Lot1 gt plenty of spec shop. Then went off to myt BF at lakeside. She said she got things to tell/ask. Suprisingly, diff story exposed.........

"I WANNA SAY BIG THANK YOU TO THAT FUCKING IRITATING BUSTARD BITCH!! All this while i trusted u coz ure my KAKAK, but end up u betrayed me. Aper motive kao ny skg? kao knl knl kn aku ngan dye tapy dlm diam diam... PALE BUTO lar! Kao pikir aku aper? Selame ny aku percaye kao rupe nyr ny yg aku dpt? Sial. gnie masham pe kao treat aku? Kalau kao tao kao adr hati pat dye dan dye pon, kn senang kao tk yar knl knl kn aku pat dye. Skg ler aku da btol btol SAYANG pat dye, baru aku dpt tao kao bustard aku. Aku percaye kao sak kak! Apr yg '8 years and still counting....'? mane tu sumer? janjy kao sumer mane? kite knl da lame. 8 tahun sak. Bukan 8 ari tao. Sal kao nk kena uat aku masham gnie? Selame ny kao lar yg aku percaye. Sumer probs aku adr aku blang kao. Dan aku adr lar perh bodoh gy ngadu naseb pat kao sal DYE. ruper nyr kao lyn kn ajer. Patot lar ler aku suwo kao tnyr dye bout her feelings kao tk tnyr tnyr coz kao sendry adr ati pat dye. Walaupon aku tao kao PEMBUSTARD tapy sesungguh nyr aku tetap percaye kn kao coz aku tao kao tk kn uat aku gnie. Tapy laen aku dpt. U lose my trust. Please lar. Stop ur fucking behaviour. Stop being a fucking BITCH! and please, STOP GIVING HOPE TO PEOPLE! jgn maen perasaan owg. And to HER. Thanks for evryting. i wonder, whatever uve said is true or not. But secrets exposed. U betrayed me too. U cheated my feelings. U fooled me. I cant believe taht ure doing this to me. Take care by now. Hope ure happy with that fucking BITCH!!"

Sesungguh nyr aku seorang insan yg mempunyai perasaan. So kepade owg owg yg tak reti nk mengambil berat tentang isi hati aku. PLEASE GET OFF FROM MY LYFE!!! i dont need this kind of people. Seriously. Dan dalam list aku da takde KAKAK/KAWAN/CFF/LG yang bername S_ _ _ _ _, FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE BITCH!! Stop fooling arnd with my FRIENDS. they are loved by me. Both of u, stop giving false hope alryte? Whats goes around comes around.

*superUTT*

2009-01-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

YOHA !
:D