6.14.2009

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All i want is YOU. I want us to be together hapilly. Without any distraction, without any disturbance. I wish i could bring you somewhere, somewhere where we can find peace. Where there's noone who try to seperate US. I want to make you the most happiest human on earth. Wanna be the one for you. Wanna be there for you. I want to hold ur hands tight. I want to be the one who make you laugh and smile, who wipe ur tears, who share your probs, who would be able to listen to you whinning without complains, even a single one, teach you how to cool down your bursts of frustrations and emotions, motivate you in everything you do, secured and care for you and most importantly, give you my PATIENCE and TRUST. I want to bring you to a place where you can have everything you asked for. A place that full of joys, loves, cares and all those sweet sweet stuff like chocolates, sweets, lollipops, etc. Doesnt it sweet, love? Living happily together. In a place where noone's there. But just US. I want to spoilt you with my loves. I may not be rich, but i can guarantee you my loves and cares that will never end. Please do not turn your back on me. Please do not leave me. Please do not let go of my hands. I need you. I need you to overcome whatever confusion or stress that i have. I need you to be there as much as you need me. I need your support, i need your strength. Most importantly, i need your LOVE and CARE. All i ever want is you. Ive been thinking of you all day long. Everytime i breathe, its you that i ever think of. Everytime you called, i just dont want to hang up. Everytime that you with me, i just wish that the day wont end. I want you by my side always. What hurt me so badly is when you cry. I feel bad everytime you are sad. I feel down everytime you're hurt. I cant bare to see you going through all those shits. I wanted to show you how badly i need you, how important you are to ME, and how much i love you. All i could ask for is your patience and trust, just as much as you asked from me. I will prove to you that whatever ive said will come true. I want to prove to you that im ur better choice and that you will never regret. I need you to stay strong and overcome all the obstacles together with me. Ive lost the one who i loved the most, the one who always be there for me, the one who pick me up when i was down, the one who cheer me up, my abang and kakak. I dont want to lose anyone else now especially you. I need you to be my pillar of strength. For me to stay strong and keep me on feet. Please do not go. And please be patience and trust me, sayang. I love you as much.

Dont mistake our love for just lust.
You are my soul, mind, body, spirit, all that i know,
but babygirl,
i cant wait till its officially us,
i cant wait to tell the world about us.

So please dont say you wanna give up,
How do i tell her that im falling in love,
And i know you waiting patiently for that day, when we no longer have to lie about us.

And when you're not here all i want is ur touch,
And when you call me i dont wanna hang up
And i know i said it often but i cant wait, till we no longer have to lie about us.

Baby, wont you wait for me?
ust a little bit longer.

6.03.2009

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now, my mind is running wild. im the one having roller coaster instead. ARGGH! im lost n confused again. again. n again. what shld i do? where shld i go? when will it over? how do i solve it? who shld i face to? STRESS!! i seriously dont know what to do. things getting worst. life changed. situation changed. she has changed. evryone's changing. i dont wanna act like a bitch or even be one. coz i knoe im not. how do i mke her feel secure? i dont want her to tink that every words i said were just words and tot that she don't matter that much to me. again, I MEAN MY WORDS. bluegh! im just too tired now. shld i? shldnt i? i feel like gving up. losing someting or someone. OR EITHER EVERYTHING? if i were only given one wish, i would like things to be back to normal, where i can find my place to peace n be with someone of my choice, and live forever happily ever after. but somehow, i know, it wont be granted. so yeah. just keep wishing n dream on...

I may not get to see you
as often as i like.
I may not get to hold you
in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart i truly know,
you're the one that i love,
and i cant let you go.

I love you more each time passed.